Friday

Friday Ramblings: The One About.. The Invisible Client, The Frozen Pipe, School Choices, and Uncle I need help?

                  The Invisible Client

What can I say about the Invisible Client? A presentation was given on behalf ESE & SEGYE and I was told no convincing was needed because                                                                              “We want to work with your company, you don’t need to convince us”.
I have received calls and text messages with assurances that the client wants to work with ESE & SEGYE but there were some abrupt changes in management. What can I say, when management is leadership in government? This meeting pending will dictate if I have to call my uncle below like a looser…

                                       

                                           The Frozen Pipe

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It was very cold this week, like it was 3-5 degrees and my pipes were completely frozen. No water to wash or make tea because everything was frozen. I found myself having a moment with my phobias. I must have used every profane word and swore to God in every language currently stored in my brain.

My phobia for dirt and OMG…..Do not judge me, the first decade of my life was in missionary school that was topped with attending a German school. You are beaten to cleanliness and dirt or filth just makes me want to screammmmmmmmmmm.

CRYING

I found myself wanting to cry AND cry. My father told me a longtime ago, I cried more than any of his kids as a child. Oh those words  became so true...
I do not cry and stop like normal regular people. It is long and gross, and I have things in my nose and no one can understand me. Yet, I will be asked 1 million times, “Fatimaah, why are you crying?”. Or I have a mate of mine that says, “Fati are you crying?” … No mate, I am bloody laughing, just why can you not see the joy in my face.

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CRYING

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I am particular about my space because of survival, fear and some people just lack hygiene. This is not about my anal views to hygiene, some people even if washed in bleach, would still come back gross.  The explanation below is why I have trust issues.

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I open the shower door and there is a tray with utensils and clean plates. She washes her dishes in the same place that she showers and does the number one and two. What in the complete (Fill in the blanks). I sprayed Rose Water on my body (Antibacterial properties) and then Coconut Oil (Antibacterial)…  

That was every version of nasty and ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. I cried just a little, my friend from the states just started laughing on the phone hysterically. My father told me, at the very least, I never ate from her house.

I laughed hard and my friend asks, “But for real, you okay?” We are quiet because we both knew the backdrop to that question is heavy, but we start laughing again. My pipes were fixed later that day.

I am grateful for a friend that knows just why I have such phobias and for laughter. All parts of travel are not romantic, and SHIT happens.

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So because of the weather and stress my inflamed joints made the week uncomfortable. My short leg, I would like to start saying my “Special leg”. My special leg that was deprived of length was not so much hurting, it was just throbbing. Oh and my left arm was hurting and in the morning, I woke up and scared me. It was like the cracking sounds sounded really bad, like damn I need to wake up slowly.
To be honest, I have not had ginger and turmeric for the last three weeks. This is also why I am in discomfort as well, but I could barely type. It was a bit frustrating and hard but I have to persevere.

School Choices

Europe
1. The Graduate Institute of International and Development Studies (Switzerland)
2. American Graduate School in Paris (France)
3. Central University (Hungary) My father has some strong reservations about this school for the same reason I am interested. Just google, you can figure out why. All that aside, AMAZING IR program

UK
1. Nottingham University
2. Goldsmiths-University of London
3. University of Aberdeen (Scotland)
4. Durham University
5. Queen University Belfast (Ireland

Uncle I need help...

My uncle is a man of little words, he is military and well this was the advice he gave me as a teenager. 

  "Masses of crowds are masses of asses"

See a man of little words and while I am sure I can ask him for help... My uncle's presence is like this scene ......

BUT I AM HERE IN MY TRAIN OF THOUGHT

I have 14 days to pick up and tell him I have the phobia below and I need help.

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See you next Friday Rambling

Friday Ramblings: The One About, OMG I am seriously sick here, Living Inconvieniences, What now?

Friday Ramblings: The One About OMG I am seriously sick here, Living Inconveniences, What now?

Rambling is defined by Webster as:

 

·      passing from one topic to another

 

·      using or containing more words than necessary to express an idea

 

Reality is defined by Webster as:

 

·      the quality or state of being real

 

·      a real event, entity, or state of affairs

 

·      totality of real things and events

 

·      something that is neither derivative nor dependent but exists necessarily

 

 

-Isms are just my own colloquialisms .

OMG I am Seriously Sick.....

I entered the New Year sick and feeling all versions of gross. I still have cold, a disgusting version of the cold. My nose is blocked, I have a sore throat and I felt like this feeling of the clip below. 

My nose, head and my bloody nose was draining of mucus. So, I caved and walked to the pharmacist with one nostril capable of breathing, sounding like a goat… I begged for medicine.  oh, how I miss my juicer!...

Just some ginger, garlic, lemon, and cayenne pepper …..
— Said every Juicer

The pharmacist instructed me to eat some food before I take the medicine. I am not sure how to say this calmly, MY THROAT WAS HURTING…..

I had three slices of French bread and popped those pills. Oh, but the side-effects…... I cannot express how high and dazed I felt. I was completly out of my ever-loving mind.

Okay, I will be honest, I literally was .....

Oh God are you there? Where is my Dad and am I Dying?? I did have a craving for Whole Foods fresh cut fruit, Kombucha and some butternut squash with roasted Salmon maybe some Gelato Ice cream
— My Body and Mind chunked deuces

This was not the High, I experienced

This was the kind of High, I experienced 

Look, I crashed around 4pm one day and woke up 9am the next day. So, I did reach out to my father, who was so kind to remind me that “yes that’s why they call them drugs”. Over the counter medicine, I THINK NOT….

I am grateful for mates that checked up on me and even the one that laughed asking, Fatimaah you never got high huh? I told him, my father simply told me try it and see. I did not want to meet my maker anytime soon, so I never tried Mary Jane, even in college. Oh, I also woke up needing a good 5 minutes. Five minutes to realize, What Country was I in? Again, I simply wanted Whole Foods.

THIS IS HEAVEN FROM WHOLE FOODS

THIS IS HEAVEN FROM WHOLE FOODS

My happy place

My happy place

This is my local Whole Foods Market in Houston, Texas

This is my local Whole Foods Market in Houston, Texas

Living Inconveniences

I need to move out by February 16th and I can not tell you how stressed I feel. I mean my back hurts; my head feels heavy. It is the 5th day of the year, I simply refuse to dwell on this. I am grateful that right now I have shelter.  

What Now?

I have narrowed it to three universities in the E.U and may be 4 in the U.K? I must wait till the 10th on the U.K confirmation.  I am working on the presumption that I must leave Seoul.  Again, it is day 5 of the new year, I am just grateful. I am also going to bed, but I will stop and get cookies. I will have 4 White Chocolate Macadamia Nut Cookies.

I will also listen to this very loudly

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See you next Friday Rambling!

Friday Ramblings: The One About Leaving Korea, Shareese Said and PhD?

.....LEAVING SOUTH KOREA

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Me: I feel like a $%^#n looser
Daniel: No, No, No, U are not a looser!! You not a $%^#n looser!!.
We worry as people because we want to accomplish SHIT!
You got options!!
You never give yourself credit
Me: Yeah sure
— Met Daniel in 2008

I must leave my flat in February and if I do not have a place to stay... #Toughshit. I am still processing this piece and I am a range of every emotion. 

WHAT I AM EXPECTED TO SAY

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SHAREESE SAID

Shareeseeee, as I refer to her is the best thing that happened to me at my old job. She is beyond wise and is from Maryland!!! I stayed in Maryland for three years as a teenager.

I called Shareese and told her, I have no idea on the next move. She tells me with this voice of authority, WHAT IS THE PLAN?? She has stressed throughout this journey, giving up is not an option. 

In my last job, we made up the “I don’t want to hear problems but solutions team”. She is a brilliant Applied Public Health Professional that I can see move waves in the CDC.

I confide to her that I am feeling quite $#c*& up but I am grateful though. We have very frank conversations about very raw painful realities and truths yet it always ends with “I am grateful, I am lucky though because…”

She says sternly....

She says sternly....

The year is over, and it is not February. Your landlord is giving you all the way till February, you are getting help. I tell her yes, I am grateful…Why you worried she asked?

I swear this chic has balls. I am in SOUTH KOREA, MY COMPANY IS NOT PICKING UP, I AM NOT AWARE OF MY LEFT OR RIGHT…SHE SAYS….

“Okay still, why you worried? What is the plan?” …

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I shared with her the strangeness that seems to follow me in Kimchi Land. Girls look at me up, down, sideways and this thing of rolling their eyes to the top of their head.

What do I wear? An African print & some western top. I wear blue tennis shoes, most of the time no makeup, my face is always shiny, and I smell like Frankincense and Myrrh. I have a shiny face because I use a coffee oil mix.  

Who gets threatened by that I ask her loudly? I tell her the many ways I can make oatmeal and I do not have money. I tell her, I am completely raw and no pretending here. I will tell you with no pretending

I %$!k#d up here
They had me %$!k#d there
….And the beat goes on…
— Unfliter truths

I am considered a threat and apparently, I am pretty. My primary and secondary education was german and religious. I cannot stress just how words like "pretty or beautiful" did not exisit. In fact it was insulting to be just "pretty" or just "beautiful". I also never heard such adjectives from my legal guardians growing up, so it is just kind of a strange adjective to use around me. I mean you kind of aimed for  “You are quite brilliant with your studies".  or You are rather stupid, just like that! 

She says, "Your presence, you are beautiful and smart. As soon as you walk in, you command the room but you know who you are and that is a threat”. 

I think, I am just a giraffe, elephant, and octopus... WHO HAS A COMPLEX OVER THAT?

I told her the marriage life is looking nice from here. She says, “We married folk looking at you like…That’s really great, you living your best life…” Shareese is married but has a life. I know that sentence is simple and short but I honestly do not know anyone married with her attitude and sense of awareness.

We also share similar childhoods (nothing great about that) but we told ourselves, we will not be Neffee. Everyone with our past is just one step away from this and I do mean just a step.

I am grateful for her, OMG SHE GOT ME A STARBUCKS CARD and her Netflix account. In the words of Dru Hill some young men from Baltimore, Maryland

PHD???

This is also on the table and will require a move to the E.U. I will see.....

See you next Friday Ramblings.

 

 

 

 

Friday Ramblings: The One About Lost Love, Birthday & Elephants and Maybe Leaving South Korea....

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Rambling is defined by Webster as:

·      passing from one topic to another

·      using or containing more words than necessary to express an idea

Reality is defined by Webster as:

·      the quality or state of being real

·      a real event, entity, or state of affairs

·      totality of real things and events

·      something that is neither derivative nor dependent but exists necessarily


-Isms are just my own colloquialisms .

The One About Lost Love

This part of the blog is about raw truths.
— Water & Cassava: Friday Ramblings

Few months ago, I got in touch with my childhood love because of my extended Cameroonian family. We lost touch and life happens! Oh, If I only knew just how well life was about to happen for me. I was so happy to hear from him, OMG did I mention that he is based in Asia? 

Well after talking, chatting, and chatting and more talking........

Facebook

I strongly believe that the creation of Facebook includes crushing your dreams and heart with a thumps up to boot!

He posts “I am getting married”.  I was all versions of floored. Look, I can take a punch or two because I dish out a few. However, I was all versions of floored. So, what did I do?

I $%^&* Adulted, yes Adulted. 

A moment that requires you to Adult. Everyone born after white Micheal Jackson struggles with this.
— Adulted

I wrote, Omg congratulations!! Now if you know me personally, you would have read that as “#$$$%%^@@#!” …. I am not even going to say that I must have read that Facebook post 50 times in the cafe, nope.  

Wait, Can I share the Kick-you-in-the-crotch spit-on-your-neck fantastic part? I am sorry, you have never heard the term, Kick-you-in-the-crotch spit-on-your-neck?

Oh #$%^&* lucky you.

Rachel can explain it better than me...

Ross gets back home from China with his new girlfriend. Rachel is not pleased with that news. 

He got married a day before my birthday.....

Q in Robyn

You know it is a complicated hurt and it is weird and strange for a host of reasons. He is a moment in my life that I was not going through some form of trauma or exploitation. 
I was/am/WHO CARES/I DO… just felt down about it. I should also point out here, I feel very abnormal about marriage. Shit, while we are at it, I think monogamy is strange. 

BUT

My birth parents are divorced, and I am brave enough to say that holds (some) weight into why that word just bothers me. 

During my teen years, I hung out with 8 kids that only 7 came from two parent households.

Throughout undergrad, everyone I hung out with after class for extra studies…DIVORCE

My grandparents on both sides are divorced

My maternal uncles are all divorced

My paternal side all divorced….

Oh wait, myself and 6 of my 7 close high school mates also ended up getting divorces before 25. 

SO WHY THE HELL WAS I SINGING

I mean it is him. I was very much infatuated with him as a kid but getting in touch and finding out, what man he grew to be and will be...... Anyway, I dealt with this as I always deal with the bullshit of life. 

Coffee

             Chocolate,

              and Ice-cream (YES, THE FROZEN COW SNUT! OH, IT IS BAD ON THIS LEVEL).

It is bad when I go for ice-cream. On the faithful night that it was confirmed, Agent Orange would be the commander in chief of the United States, I ate Ice-Cream. It is not important to know just how much, just that I ate ice-cream. My father called like he already knew, he even asked if I ate Ice-Cream and asked, "Are you okay?”

 

...WHO IS OKAY WITH AN OOMPA LOOMPA??? WHO, OMG AN OMMPA LOOMPA IS IN CHARGE OF MY BLUE PASSPORT?

 I am for diversity and equality, but I will not accept orange people. I do not drink but after the Facebook post, I consumed Chocolate, Coffee, and Ice-Cream together. I say no to fermented potato juice because it is bad for your liver. However, I say yes to Diabetes, who needs two legs? 

With all that sadness, I found out he ate the swine. I think I cried a bit more because on top of all of it, he ate the SWINE.  I just cannot DEAL with that piece. I have tried to process the pork eating FOLK, but I am sorry, I say no like people who refuse to go to rehab....

Amy tell these folks...

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I am also a sneeze away from mammal eating folk. I am often asked, “OMG, WHO CAN YOU DATE?”.
I have never had a problem with pork and dating. It is simple you can eat pork, you just cannot date me. See no problem at all?
Honestly 99.9999% of people I interact with, let alone “date” do not eat pork and try to avoid meat, smoking, alcohol. 

Oh well such is life!

BUT HERE IS SOME ROXETTE TO REALLY LET YOU KNOW…IT HURTS…

Music video by Roxette performing It Must Have Been Love.

BIRTHDAYS & ELEPHANTS

I am in Thailand to research on eating bugs and why not celebrate my day of birth with my elephants.

Keeka & Lisu will serve authentic cuisine from the continent and this includes insects as well. I wanted to see how they prepare their bugs and insects. I have to say grasshoppers, crickets and silkworms will be the most delicious insects to serve. They are clean, high in protein and green friendly. I am hoping as a company we contribute to the Entomophagy economy of Africa.

Human eating insects as food.
— Entomophagy
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On my earth strong, I served my elephants. The logo of the company is an elephant because it symbolizes diplomacy. Why don’t you know this? The Romans, Colonialism and the B.S. I played in mud, cooked, clean and swam in the lake with the elephants.

I am not sure how that is possible because I do not swim. I see large bodies of water and I swear to you my ancestors from the Atlantic Ocean and those that were pushed into the Atlantic Ocean start telling me

 

  My daughter you will drown

Imagine my surprise, I was swimming on top of the elephant. Then again, my maternal roots claim, we are elephants and mermaids as well. The caretakers kept saying, the elephants really like you. Elephants are majestic, loving, calm and adorable. They are vegetarians, they spend 4 hours sleeping and the rest eating and playing in water or mud.

However for self- defense, make no mistake, they will stomp you to death. I should add that this is a great metaphor for me.

Anyway, I remember my last birthday just saying over and over, I will start this company. I will go to South Korea because after all…

 I am always Graceful as the Giraffe, Diplomatic as the Elephant, and Deadly as an Octopus.
— Behind Water & Cassava

.... BACK TO THE BUSINESS...THE ONLY THING THAT MATTERS

 

LEAVING SOUTH KOREA??

Get this , Get this, I get this, I get this
Get this, Get this, I get this, I get this
— I am ready to Blow
Playlist Best of DAWN https://goo.gl/Xxs7TV Subscribe for updates https://goo.gl/v4P2gF From the critically acclaimed album, Blackheart: http://smarturl.it/DRBH Music video for Blow performed by DAWN. Site: http://dawnrichard.net/ Twitter: http://twitter.com/DawnRichard Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/DawnRichard Soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/dawn_richard Instagram: http://instagram.com/dawnrichard Tumblr: http://dawnrichard.tumblr.com Director - Monty Marsh Producer - Monty Marsh Cinematographer & Editor - Cody Cuellar Production - Guerilla Filmworx Choreographer - Anthony "AJ" Jackson Copyright (C) 2014 Our Dawn Publishing .

Okay so wow!! So much has happened, and I am not sure on the terms “good” or “bad”, but here is what you missed so far.

I attended the Global Women’s Forum in Busan. I met the woman responsible for why Seoul even got the opportunity to host the Olympics in the first place. I mean you speak of power and influence, it was in this room. I was put in a five-star hotel to encourage young ladies to go for their dreams and peruse their interest with vigor. I was shocked that I was considered. I mean a five-star hotel to work in, to go ask for driving directions but to stay in one??? The breakfast was so good. I stuffed my bag with 10 tangerines and that was dinner.


the hits just keep coming...

February 22nd, I must find a new place because my lease is up! I need a place to stay if I am going to stay in Seoul.  I do not see that happening because I have no funds. This is a startup by just one person. While I can see that things are moving in some ways, I also feel that I am quite behind in many ways.

Okay, let us recap

First two events, I am a guest.

Third, I am a guest speaker. My hotel is paid for and I am offered a kitchen for my gastro series by the organizer. I can only pursue this project, if I have a place to stay.

Fourth event-My transportation, food and hotel are paid for.

Maybe, my fifth will be a contract? I have not yet secured a contract for ESE & SEGYE.

I have to set up a calendar for next year and this must include: ESE & SEGYE, WATER & CASSAVA, KEEKA & LISU AND THE COCOYAMS &

I need to make money quickly. I have no money and dreams do not feed you as much as they starve you. I am pretty sure I wear a U.S size 1 / 2 … I came in to Seoul a 2/4.

I also need to buckle down on my position as Chair of Public Health, Policy & Administration with Bright Light Projects this includes a trip to Sierra Leone.

PLAN A
I stay in Korea, live on rice and go through visa travels and stay in a hostel.

PLAN B (MOVE TO THE U.S)
I am not sure just how to even deal with moving back to the states. I mean, I need a car and OMGGG

1.       Move to Alaska, but job openings??? Pay??

2.       Texas- I go back to working for Health & Human Services and I am not sure that is even an option.

3.       New York- I do not need a car, I could crash with Mara-Mara but job searches in NYC?

4.       California-Public Transportation exist, I could stay with Aunt Yvette or Bernice?? The job market is not easy in California, I mean it is worse than the other mentioned states.

PLAN C
I move back to the E.U. take more school loans for my PhD. I think England or Netherlands?

PLAN D

Go to Saudi Arabia and look for one of those princes and tell them I will be wife number 4. I will have to tell Hazim and Jameel I just cannot be number 4. #Alhamdulillah
I am still grateful no matter how this blows though. I will submit and like Buddah. I will go through my transformation with tears and take my welt as I did as a kid. I am still here though. 

I am still grateful no matter how this blows though. I will submit and like Buddah. I will go through my transformation with tears and take my welt as I did as a kid. I am still here though. 

See you next Friday Ramblings, Let us hope I can pay rent as well :(

 

 

 

Friday Ramblings: The One About "Gratefulness, Unexpected and Failure"

Rambling is defined by Webster as:

·      passing from one topic to another

·      using or containing more words than necessary to express an idea

Reality is defined by Webster as:

·      the quality or state of being real

·      a real event, entity, or state of affairs

·      totality of real things and events

·      something that is neither derivative nor dependent but exists necessarily


-Isms are just my own colloquialisms .

 

I am on a rollercoaster just going up, down, sideways and upsidedown. I am going to puke quite soon
— Who the hell asked you to come to the theme park though?

I cannot stress just how crazy this week was, but I can tell you the order was: Late Nights, WTF Facebook Follows, Unexpected, Gratefulness and Failure. It was not in that order but shit it might as well be…

#Fuckyducky

The Failure Part

I am not sure how to say this, but I do feel like a failure. I also found myself slipping into self-destructive mood. 

You know, I do not drink or smoke. But shit when I hit that “SELF-DESTRUCTIVE BUTTON” … You would ask, WTF are you drinking, taking, or smoking???
— All me and All truth
Sober as a Judge but never Drunk as a Lord...
— Grew up in a former British Space, I really speak like this in real life

I am not able to raise the money needed to get my business visa to set up the business. I tried so hard, but just not fast or hard enough. I should be doing better than this, I am not moving fast enough. I am a tortoise on a path with cheetahs passing me by.

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(Lane Posters)

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The Gratefulness Part 

Getting someone to recommend me to do a PSA that got me some dead presidents in my wallet? Our interaction was just once at mixer for people with no capital trying to do business in Korea. Well it is true, first impressions matter.

I am beyond grateful
 

My local barrister celebrated his birthday, but saved a cake for me. I was surprised and touched, I mean it is his birthday not “our birthday”.  Despite not speaking English and my no existent Korean, he is always kind to me. I have never walked into this café without them beating me to say 안녕하세요! (Hello, Annyong). I always make sure to say (Goodnight Guys, Thanks for Everything).


I am grateful for consideration from new friends and warm smiles.

Remember last Friday, I was not sure about rent. I was able to secure funds for rent.
I am beyond grateful

I ate fresh food for two days….
MY SOUL MADE OF FRUITS, VEGGIES AND APPLECIDER VINEGAR IS GRATEFUL.

 

Getting my portraits emailed to me by a gentleman that has photographed four Korean Presidents. I was so beyond humbled and grateful. Tiny me compared to giants.

Grateful Tortoise among Cheetahs
 

Beyond Grateful

Beyond Grateful

My childhood mate donating to my gofundme page. She stays in Los Angeles, I am grateful for 2 cents. That place is so expensive, I think it is because they just want people to run into traffic. Anytime we are asked, how long have you known each other? We just start laughing uncontrollably. We always tell people, we have kicked it from the womb… you cannot go back than that!

I AM GRATEFUL

The Unexpected Part

Did I mention my childhood friend from L.A donating?

L.A ain’t cheap bruh….
— Said Everyone in Los Angeles


I was told something unexpected, I was told that as a child “You were so bubbly and happy”. It was unexpected because to be honest this person meant well. I know their heart meant well. I was few seconds from breaking down. It means that I have practiced the art of pretending the pain from a very seriously fucked up first 10 years of life to an art. In my darkest moments, I receive the most compliments. I often think everyone must see I am cracking but Nah… “Fatimaah you are amazing, how did you……”

I am grateful because it means that even as a kid, I was just fighting you know??

 

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Uncle Bob once said …. (You may not mention Mr. Dylan)

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The Jollof Empire

My Jellof Rice friend that seems to insist that I am going to be fine because shit, his Wolof and he said so!!!   I love Wolof people you hear me? I mean my love is outside of the Jellof rice. I swear it is, they come close to my Zulu people that I love today, tomorrow, yesterday, and forever..

Greatful to Jollof Rice and Origins

 

Speaking of a Jamaican

I am sure my soul and uncle Bob’s people are forever intertwined. I do not know how this works in my life, however I know this to be true as love.

I have never had a difficult chapter in life without Jamaicans and neighboring islands as my safety net. I really believe that the struggles of blackness in America was not so hard on me because Uncle Bob and Family have always been there for me. I saw that African-Americans from the States would get punches, but those guys just came in no matter the space (North America, Europe, or Asia), like

“You are okay, eye ear you”.
— Rasta Man

They took some of those hits of leftover colonialism for me and so my tears became laughs that made my belly hurt. The Jamaican brother, I met that schooled me on other options with this business.

Uncle Bob did tell me to be a Buffalo Soldier

Stream/Download Legends (Deluxe edition) here: https://BobMarley.lnk.to/LegendDEID Music video by Bob Marley & The Wailers performing Buffalo Soldier. (C) 2003 Universal-Island Records Ltd.

Grateful for Uncle Bob, his children and neighbors. 

 

THE WTF FACEBOOK FOLLOWER

I was told time was a great healer this week after I expressed my shock state of seeing this name on my laptop screen.

Time might be a great healer for you! The other person might still see you and think, BULLSHIT!
Nothing Personal….
 

I was in a state of shock because our last interaction was just BAD. I mean all versions of terrible.

This was a “friend” to my maternal family, and her interactions with everyone has always followed with the words “crazy, madness and my personal best I just don’t understand” ….

 

The younger me would have sent a message like:

“I see you are following me, please don’t and Oh if I forgot to mention... You are a very horrible person and should %^&K off. Have a great day”.
— This was before I met Black Jesus, Buddah, Mohammed and Krishna, What is tuly up my hommies?

I think people  can be so rude you know? You must always tell others to have a great day.

. Manners, Where are your manners??

I did not send such a message. I imagined just how strange/brave/everything that says this shit is not comfortable it must have been for her to click that button. I wish her well, peace and great moments of joy in life.

…..STILL WTF FACEBOOK FOLLOWER, I  AM GRATEFUL  

   ... I AM THE FOLLOWING LIFE BELOW       

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I am/must be graceful as the giraffe 

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Diplomatic as the Elephant

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Deadly as the Blue Octopus, I learned and still am learning this stage of me. 

 
This is my shadow, you must know of my heritage to understand the connection of the Elephant & Mermaid. 

This is my shadow, you must know of my heritage to understand the connection of the Elephant & Mermaid. 

Sometimes or maybe all the time

Sometimes or maybe all the time

This is because of the box below

This is because of the box below

So because of this, I often wonder......

So because of this, I often wonder......

But that is beauty in not having all YOUR SHIT TOGETHER...

But that is beauty in not having all YOUR SHIT TOGETHER...

Amazing requires Courage....

Amazing requires Courage....

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LATE NIGHTS & COFFEE
 




Until next Friday Ramblings, Cheers to the bloody weekend!